Poetry, Self Harm

Cut!

Take a dip in my small pool of insanity
You’re not alone yet you’ll meet nobody
A weight holding you down, but you feel no gravity
It seems the only way out means getting your hands bloody.

Beating yourself up over nothing at all
Tried crying out for help, no one answers the call
Decide for yourself the best way out
Repeating mistruths, following the wrong route

Misguided by the bliss that may follow the deed
Time to dig in deep & let myself bleed.

 

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Poetry, Vacation Shitposting

Naive Epiphanies

Sadly, things just faded
No fights, no words, no acknowledgment.
I guess you became jaded.
So here’s another sentiment,
For you to notice and to get you to think
About how you abandoned ship before it started to sink.
All you wanted was better toys to play with,
At least you proved to me that love’s just another myth.
So thank you for the shitstorm you are
Now I know that people scar.

Poetry, Vibes

Waiting

I did tell you I’d wait
And I’m a man of my word
I thought what we had was great
Looking back, it’s absurd
How I thought we would function
Back in those days of naivety
But it’s been too long a malfunction
In deep depths of depravity
I think I’ve given up waiting

College, Music

Feedback Wanted

So two friends of mine(namely Surya and Vamsi) and I have a jam band going on where we make our own semblance of music and recently, we even managed to get around to making some noise around campus during our college fest.

We really do love doing this and would love to hear some thoughts other than the inevitable echo chamber of our own opinions and thoughts on our stuff.

So if you got some time to spare, feedback, thoughts and criticism are always welcome.

Here’s the link to our music:

Hedgehog Shrub Bandcamp

Or some of our videos if that’s your thing:

Hedgehog Shrub @ Informals Ragam

 

P.S HedgehogShrub, if not clear already, is the name of our band.

Poetry, Vibes

To whomsoever it no longer concerns

You do cross my mind at times,
Warm, fond memories followed by a pang of pain.
Once the focus of my rhymes,
now, the thought of you drives me insane
Funny how of the things that kept me grounded
You were one to leave me dumbfounded

I try my best to rid myself of the thought of you
It seemed liked closure was long overdue.
Plagued by your sickness
It makes me ill to my core
Exploiting my weakness
And leave me wanting more
This allure of yours is nothing new
For a while though, it was a picture perfect view.

College, Poetry, Vibes

Left Unsaid

The mind left to ponder,
began to fester and rot.

Forgetting those times fonder,
Memories persist from times not.

Maybe there’s apologies in order
But as we drift further, my mind does saunter.

Whether it was grief, joy or rage
Now they’re just words on a page.

Pages upon pages filled with these words of mine
But let’s insist we’re doing “fine”

At the end of it all, there’s much left unsaid,
Never to be heard, now that our bond is dead.

drugs, Poetry, Vibes

Substance

Started off sweet
Then came the obsession
You were not one to accept defeat
Till you took the nosedive into depression

A steady descent into the depths of depravity
Soon to witness the fragility of sanity.
Fear only the places your mind will take you
You arrive, its a sign. Chaos begins to ensue.

Did you not follow,
When they approached tempting.
Look at you now, so hollow.
All of that for nothing.

So much time wasted, waiting.
Decaying at varying levels of sedation
A lot of time spent hating
For lack of another sensation,
Leaving one in constant tribulation